I felt relief when I finally decided to quit going in FS. My husband was never very regular so there was no pressure from him to continue on . What I do recall as being an odd experience was the last time I prayed . I remember it vividly .We were on a motorcycle ride out in the country and I said a final good bye prayer . It felt strange like something left me ....no not Holy Spirit.. more like oppression . It felt odd ,but not bad .....just the feeling of truly being independent I think .
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An odd experience I had the other day...............
by nicolaou inmy job took me to a residential part of town that i would never normally have any reason to go to.
i had to go to a specific address.
i found it quite easily and parked the car about twenty yards from the customers home.. i had a sense of deja vu - but an unpleasant and rather disturbing one.. i took a good look around me.
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Worst Night of the Year
by Quendi inwell, it's that time of year again.
the memorial season is upon us and jws the world over are getting ready for the celebration which this year falls on 17 april.
for the first time since 1975, yours truly will not attend and i couldn't be happier.
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troubled mind
Our last one was 2005 . We had just started our fade and an Elder came over to the house to invite us personally ,so we went . Some people came up and hugged us with 'Oh we miss you ', one Elder said that and followed it with ,"I guess I could of called ,huh ? ".... Many more went out of their way to stick their noses in the air and let us know how poorly they thought of us .
I knew when I left that night I would never go to another one again . The ceremony is pointless.
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troubled mind
AA will most likely be happy to have you back .....
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June 15 WT- Scrolls "Probably most Christians could not carry many with them for preaching"
by LostGeneration inthe june 15 study edition talks about scrolls, we all know the silly picture of the dude hauling scrolls around that the wt has put into a few of their publications.
this paragraph in the new wt states:.
the well-known dead sea scroll of isaiah is almost 24 feet (7.3 m) in length.
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troubled mind
most likely so .....apparently .......probably ......most definitely we make stuff up as we go along .......
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June 15th WT, Trap Your Kids in the Cult
by LostGeneration inthe new wt is up.
the worst article is the first one, a non-study article.
shows pictures of a kid, looks like he is 10 years old.
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troubled mind
When my youngest son got baptised @16 one of the MS came up to me and said, "Now we can REALLY help him ", WTF did that mean ?? What came in to my mind immediately was 'yeah now you guys can pressure him to conform because you will hold DFing over his head ' . What held them back from helping /encouraging him before ? ( i had tried to talk my son out of baptism )
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What are the people at Bethel like? What's the GB like?
by doubtful ini can't even count the number of times i've heard people say how incredibly humble and down-to-earth and caring the exectuives at bethel are.
i've had one first person encounter with a gb member..i forget his name although i would be able to identify him in a picture.
he did seem genuinely nice.
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troubled mind
I went on a trip in 2000 to NYC . While there I had my first chance to tour Bethel ,and have dinner with the Bethelites in one of the main dining rooms .
My impression was this : very business like ,almost a military feel to it ....I disliked the feeling very much . It DID NOT come across as a place of brotherly love and warmth . In the evening we went back to visit a young Bethelite that took us up to see his room ,it made me sad to see he had so little personal space ,and slept on a bed roll on the floor . During the day I watched peoples faces as they rushed from dinner to work ,I saw stress and pressure .Not the smiling ,jovial ,relaxed expressions I expected to see in God's house .
I saw one older GB member being led into the dining room by a young aide ,the older man shuffled his feet and appeared to be talking to his shoes .Not a vote of confidence from me if he was still an active GB member .I imagine he was one of the older ones being taken care of instead of actually being active .
I met the Gb member that did the voice reading of the old Bible Story book ,at an assembly .He seemed nice enough ,but in his talk he seemed far removed from what modern families really deal with on a day to day basis .
That is all I have to share .
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Taxi Driver .........we never saw it when it came out because it was rated R, and we didn't watch those kind of movies back then .
We had heard so much about it being such a great movie, that when it was advertised to be on TV recently ,we both were excited to watch it ......BLAH ! We both hated it ! The acting was just awful.....What in the world did people think was so great about this movie ?
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Pray for our Brothers in Japan
by doubtful inthis is my first post.
the first portion is my story, and toward the end, you will find the section pertinent to the title of this thread.
(starting with the portion in bold print).
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troubled mind
What BlackSheep had to say needs repeating (until you understand it's true importance :
" Welcome to the forum doubtful.
I think you know the answers to most of your questions without our help, but you just don't like the answers or their implications.
Trust yourself.
If something doesn't make sense, it's not because you are stupid or need someone with 'special' knowledge to 'help' you understand. It is because it really doesn't make sense."
I grew up as a Witness and had the same doubts as you my whole life . I did not want to hurt my Mom and leave the religion ......I shoved down the doubts and caused myself to suffer depression ,unhappiness, anxiety for most of my life .
Please listen to your own inner voice ,you are young and have a whole future in front of you . I didn't start listening to my own conscience until I was in my late 40's ....Please don't wait that long .
It is scary to start realizing all you were taught to believe may not be true . But it is only scary until you face it and go through it .....then it is no longer something feared .
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Time to stop obsessing
by Qcmbr ini think i may have reached another crossroads.
the most tolerant woman in the world and i were discussing it last night.
i've seen my loss of faith like a relationship breakup, i've done the gut wrenching fear bit and i've been heavily invested in the anger and angst phase where i've sought out people who believed as strongly as i once did and challenged them (like an ex-lover calling up for a shouting match.
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troubled mind
Sounds like a healthy conclusion to me . Best wishes
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earthquake in IL back in the 1960's
by TotallyADD ini remember the fear i had, i thought i was going to die because the big a started.
all it was a little shaking of the plates and glasses in the cabinets.
it was 1967 or 1968 late fall on a saturday morning.
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troubled mind
I do remember the one in 1987 ! We felt it while walking on the sidewalk, like a small wave . I slept through the one in 2008.